After my last post I figured I should follow it up somewhat quickly with something a little happier. If you are worried about me don’t be – God is faithful and although in many ways I still feel the same I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else. Being here in Paris is me sitting in the middle of God’s will for my life, the only place I want to be.
So this past week I was reading the book of Ezekiel, starting in chapter 40 God gives Ezekiel a vision of the new temple. I don’t know about you, but when I get to these sections in the Bible about cubits and rods and how wide the door was, I skip over them. For some reason this time I didn’t and as I was reading I was struck by how detailed and how exact God described his plans. He describes the width of the walls, the palm trees decorations on the walls, the hooks on the tables that will hold the utensils for the sacrifices, and the clothes that the priest will wear and where they can wear them. Incredible detail and incredible precision; God had a blueprint for what this temple was going to look like. There was no, I wonder what that will look like over there or, do you think this door is wide enough. He knew exactly what it was going to look like.
As a person who is very much into the details this made me stop and think. Lately my mind has been full of what if, how, when and, is this even possible? I have been caught up in the details of survival, language, how to keep the house from being dusty, where is the best place to buy a beach towel, eye trouble, weak fingers, moody pre-teens, interns, and money. I want to have a plan. I want a checklist. At this point in my life I can’t have a plan and the checklist gets thrown out the window when I can’t even make an appointment over the telephone. God, I like details! Why have You put me in place where I can’t figure them out?
Anyway Ezekiel lead me to Psalms 139 where David describes how God knows every detail about us. He knows when we sit and when we rise, the words we are going to say, and thoughts that we will think. God knows our innermost being – nothing about us is hidden from Him. We were knit together. Our bodies which are so complex, God created. Every detail was thought of – nothing was forgotten. It reminds me of when Fayth was born – how all 2lbs10oz was complete. Every detail was remembered nothing was left unfinished. God was in the details.
My next thought went to my worry verses (worry is not a new subject for me) – many of you know them Matthew 6:25-34. In these verses God tells us not to worry about the details. Don’t worry about what you will eat, drink, or wear. Why? Because God has the details. He handles the details for the lilies, he handles the details for the sparrows, and he handles the details for me, for us. My job, your job, is to seek first His kingdom. The details will come because God, our God who is in every detail, will handle them.
So this is where I need my heart and my mind to rest. My God, Creator of the Universe, The God that knows every detail holds me and all my details in His hand. I must seek first His Kingdom and not worry about tomorrow.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”