3/5/11 – Raeni – and the wait goes on

So -when I started blogging I thought this process would be much faster and I would have a lot more to say – a lot more to get on paper. Well actually it seems to be going very slow. Tony and I agreed to pursue Paris 4 months ago. In my mind a lifetime ago really its only about 120 days. We want to get their but there are tests, interviews, and boards that have to meet. So although Paris is still thought about everyday I have to say some of the excitement is wanning and we are going through our lives. When we leave is to far away, there is no definite yes. With all that said – I am learning about patience and God’s timing – AGAIN!
So what has happened since my last blog – more tests. We took another battery of psych tests. I think its good that when the test asked “do you fall frequently when walking” I could reply with false. We have had another get to know you interview. We are looking forward to Matt’s visit in a couple of weeks. I am hoping to get some definites out of this meeting.
So I guess the main reason that I am writing this blog is what happened at church last night. It was about the lost and the hurting and how the church looks away when we are really called to look for the lost and hurting. Anyway we sang Send Me Out by Fee. If you aren’t familiar with the lyrics here they are.

 Jesus, Lord of my salvation, Savior of my soul
Send me out to the world to make You known, Jesus
King of every nation, this world’s only hope
Send me out to the world to make You known

Send me out to the world

I wanna be Your hands and feet
I wanna be Your voice every time I speak
I wanna run to the ones in need
In the name of Jesus
I wanna give my life away
All for Your kingdoms sake
Shine a light in the darkest place
In the name of Jesus, in the name of Jesus

Carry to the broken hearted mercy You have shown
Send me out to the world to make You known
And to the ones in need of rescue
Lead me I will go
Send me out to the world to make You known
Send me out to the world

I wanna be Your hands and feet
I wanna be Your voice every time I speak
I wanna run to the ones in need
In the name of Jesus
I wanna give my life away
All for Your kingdoms sake
Shine a light in the darkest place
In the name of Jesus, in the name of Jesus

Here am I, I will go
Send me out to make You known
There is hope for every soul
Send me out, send me out
Here am, I will go
Send me out to make You known
There is hope for every soul, so send me out

I wanna be Your hands and feet
Be Your voice every time I speak
I wanna run to the ones in need
In the name of Jesus
I wanna give my life away
All for Your kingdoms sake
Shine a light in the darkest place
In the name of Jesus

I wanna be Your hands and feet
I wanna be Your voice every time I speak
I wanna run to the ones in need
In the name of Jesus
I wanna give my life away
All for Your kingdoms sake
Shine a light in the darkest place
In the name of Jesus, in the name of Jesus

As we sang this song I was reminded of something Tony said recently – it was about the idea of really meaning what you sing to God. As I stood there singing this song, I thought do I really mean this? Do I really want to be his hands and feet? Do I really want to be his voice? Do I want to give my life away? Do I want to run to the ones in need? If you really think about it, these are big things. These are scary and uncomfortable. Right now I am far to comfortable. Life is easy. In Plymouth – people in need – you have to really go looking for them. One of the things I love about Plymouth that as I walk to work, I wave and know the name of at least 6 people. How many of those people are really hurting? Who do I need to be hands and feet to? So with all that said – no matter where I am I need to be better and being His hands and feet. I need to better at seeing people as Jesus would have seen them. I need to run to those in need.  For however long we are here I need to look as Plymouth as my mission field. Maybe, probably my mission field will change in the next year. No matter where it is – how can I be hands and feet?

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